I woke up this Friday with a smile! I smiled for a lot of reasons. After a tough ride, Thurs noon I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. My hard work was rewarded. I heard my dad's voice tell me that good things happen to good people and I saw it finally happen to me. But, while I was being patted on the back, I did not exactly jump and scream with joy. My best friend asked me on the phone "what is wrong with you, why don't you sound excited?''I was not. A sudden calm had dawned on me. I was happy but more than that I was thankful. A handful of people believed in me when things went horribly wrong. I felt thankful that I had enough resilience to fight back and keep the faith those few still had in me.
So, that was one reason I woke up smiling after a peaceful slumber. When I looked out from my window seeing the children in my building scampering with their bags and lunch boxes, I thought of the days when my friends and I would cycle down to school singing along each morning. While the reverie was flashing, it began to drizzle! The clouds parted and the blessed rain came down for a brief time. That was enough to make the whole day beautiful :)
With the windows down, I felt the breeze in my hair. I felt that morning like I could do anything, just anything I wanted and no body would stop me. I sat down on my laptop to work but not without the wonderful music. I kept humming all day. I kept going back to memories dear that were still fresh.
I stood at the balcony watching a few drops come down hoping it pours some more. Everyone around me was in a light mood because of the pleasant weather. I stood watching, smiling, slurping on chai. The day was packed with trainings and meetings but somehow, nothing could take my happy away.
After years, I thought of my grand dad. My old man on whom I rode piggy back as a child. He would watch me play, hear my fancy stories which I made up while on walks. He taught me to make paper boats. He was there when I got wet for the first time on my terrace. We raced paper boats down the stairs and he let me win. Later, I grew up. I somehow had no time for my oldest friend. He moved on to silent days by the bed while I moved away with new friends and new games to play.
After 10 years, I suddenly missed him like crazy. I wanted to hold his hand again and watch his toothless grin. But these thoughts didn't make me sad. I may have spent little time with him but they, after all these years, still made me smile on a rainy day!
The sun played peek-a-boo with the clouds all day long. I was waiting to get out of work. The music never stopped playing in my head. It was an evening filled of books then. I was like a little child in a candy store. Every book was calling out to me and I didn't know which ones to carry home. I got myself 4 wonderful books from my current list of 'to be read soon' grinning like a goofy dog!
I bid adieu to Shrek at 9 that night. 'Shrek- forever after' was a disappointment from the start but I still sat through thinking of the previous 3 movies, people I saw them with the first time, those I laughed with recalling the lines innumerable times thereafter. Donkey and his songs, Puss and his accent! Sigh! I will miss them.
Saturday was my lazy day. I enjoyed my solitude. Watched 3 intelligent British movies. They were a refreshing break from Hollywood! Enjoyed my latest book by myself at a coffee shop, got wet in the slight drizzle, cleaned my room and read some more.
As the day ended, I missed that light headed feeling. Tomorrow- who knows what stories that would bring? Would these three days of simple joys come back again? I have no clue. After a long time, I had nothing in my head but just gratitude for the good times.
Saawan Barase, Tarase Dil Kyon Naa Nikale Ghar Se Dil
Barakhaa Mein Bhee Dil Pyaasaa Hai, Ye Pyaar Naheen To Kyaa Hai!!
No matter how grey the clouds get there are somethings that will always be my silver lining. My family, my best friends and my music within. On a tough day when nothing is how it is meant to be, reading this note will perhaps tell me that nothing can take my happy away unless I let it!
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